The difference of understanding and accepting

Hi y'all! I'm here again to share about my thoughts.

Have you ever worked so hard, poured so much heart into a single thing? I'm sure many of you do.
You must've understood the feeling when you have worked so hard and give all you have and be proud of yourself. And you start to expect that you're going to get the credits that you deserve for so much hard work.

I did, and my hard work is not really appreciated  In fact it was slammed into the floor and it just broke my heart. I was disappointed for a minute or two, but I did not dwell on it. The moment I felt the disappointment, my head started saying things to make me feel better.

I told my self that it was nothing. I made a mistake I did not even know, but there ought to be a reason. Numbers won't show how much I've worked. I started doubting myself, thinking that I overestimated myself. Again. Enough of this.

I felt disappointed, angry, ashamed, hatred and sad. To know that there are going to be more disappointment ahead, I was scared. If this little thing could screw myself bad, what about other things? Will I give up?.

And then I went to clear my head, and just be positive. I tried so hard to shake off the negativity and focus on the positive. And things started getting better.

My head is telling me that it is not my fault. I remembered when I used to complain to my parents and my dad actually said "Who promised that it is going to be easy?". And that just answered it all.

I promised to not be so hard on myself, and actually accepts the fact that I do mess up like anybody else, but that doesn't mean that I am unforgivable. I am too blessed to be annoyed and disappointed by this small things.

I understand that not everyone's gonna accept yourself, your work, your thinking, etc. Not everyone. 
Not everyone is going to kiss your ass and appreciate things that you do.

I understand these, I mean it's all common sense. The hard part is accepting it.
The possibility is that a lot of people won't get you. They just don't understand and does not accept you. It is the brutal truth.

Remember that you have power.
Your job is not to cry and complain about people not accepting you.

Your job is to make them understand. Your job is to pour your heart and soul into what you believe and make everyone believe in it.

This is not a fairy tale, things won't just happen instantly. There will be blood and tears and people hurt in the making. But you fight for what you believe.

For those that has accepted me for who I am, Thank You. 
For those that has appreciate my efforts, Thank You. 
For those that has believed in me, Thank You. 
And for those who hated me and wished bad things upon me, well Thank You. And also, Fuck you.

xo Steph

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